True Nature and YOUR True Nature

At the very beginning of my vacation this year, I discovered once again my personal true nature. 

 

True nature in general is built into the system that helps us heal psychologically as well as physically.  (Thank goodness when I scrape my arm or knee, I don’t have to KNOW what to do to have my physical immune system heal, right?????)  And knowing that my psychology is designed to come back to balance if I trust that it will, letting my thinking move through me and learning to focus only on thoughts that leave me peaceful even in trying circumstances, is a blessing during volatile and chaotic times. 

However, we also all have a unique lens or design we are born with, that allows us to see the very life we inhabit from our own personal perspective. 

It’s useful to begin to understand that the reason it is always you that notices “x”, is because you were born with a lens that allows you to see “x”.  Others were born being able to see “y” or “z”, not “x”.  This is why it is useful to just give up being annoyed that your children, spouse or friend can’t see the very thing that to you is as plain as the nose on your face. They can’t see what you see, and you can’t see what they see.

So, on the last day of work prior to my vacation, I went out to fill up the fountain in my front yard and noticed that the stray cat that had been coming around to drink from the fountain was lying near the fountain.  When I began to fill the fountain, she did not move when a light mist from the hose fell on her.  Knowing this was un-cat-like behavior, I looked at her more closely and realized her coat was not well groomed (cats are fanatics about grooming themselves), and she was thin.  I am allergic to cats, and have terriers who would love to chase cats, so bringing her into the house was not going to work, even if I could manage to catch her.

I brought a puppy crate out into the yard, filled the water cup with fresh water and put it near her.  She immediately got up and drank about half of the water.  I then decided to try petting her, which she seemed to enjoy, again getting up and rubbing against my legs.  At that point I tried picking her up, which she let me do, placed her in the crate, and closed the door.  And then it occurred to me I now at least temporarily, owned a cat!  Yikes.  What was I thinking???

This is where I began to feel my own true nature.  This was an animal in distress, and by nature I must offer it support if I can, and if it will let me. 

The short story is after checking with a few neighbors to see who she belonged to, I ended up at an emergency vet who scanned her for a microchip (none) that would have identified her owner, then told me she was very old, and very ill, with a mass on her liver.  We opted to have her euthanized, and again by nature I wanted to be sure someone who loved her was with her as she passed on, so I stayed. 

On the drive home, with tears in my eyes, I was sort of shaking my head about the whole thing.  There was seemingly a strong directional pull to all of those actions, even though I was tired, allergic to cats, and it cost me close to $500 in vet fees.  That’s true nature, and each of you reading this has one as well.  Once you know yours, those odd choices you make sometimes will suddenly make complete sense.

Be on the lookout for themes in your life, and try trusting your own personal true nature as well as the innate system built in.  It’s a very easy way to begin giving up the thought that there is something wrong with you!